Thursday, August 21, 2008

i have these 2 swollen and itchy mosquito bites.
its really swollen. din really dare to scratch it even tho its so itchy.
surprisely, i m the only one in the family who has it but i din even go out.

just wiki-ed (:
YAYS!!
Feng Tian Wei and Li Jiawei got into top 8 for TT singles.
oh yeah..
i was wondering why aint channel 5 broadcasting the match.
so irritating.
quarter finals is at 6pm later.
i shall prepare to click on my refresh page for 2 hrs.
really hope they win.
GO TEAM SINGAPORE.

as crazy as it sounds.
Feng Tianwei has become my lastest EYE CANDY (:
shes so cute.
cant stop looking at her on the telly.
HAHAHAH.


Well.
i learnt a lot of things from this person in particular.
not exactly that she's very wise or whatever.
but after looking at her and observing her,
i tell myself not to make the same mistakes.

do u rmb i wanted to name my daughter mallory?
partly because that name is unique/name of my bff.
and majorly because i want my daughter to be like her.
dont need to be as pretty/fit/smart/ as her.
Just need to be as kind, generous and nice as her.
i want her to have a character like mal.
one that brings a lot of joy and comfort to others.
shes really generous and is willing to share almost everything with ppl
(with the exception of maybe jielun HAHAHAH).
Personally i learn alot from mal.

Shes always there during these 2 years.
No matter how late i call her at night,
she wldnt mind and will just listen to me.
Sometimes i dont even talk, i will just cry and cry.
and then she will give this very helpless reply
"huh....you dont cry la"(which i find it damn cute)
She doesnt say much, she will listen attentively.
She may not know it.
but she was the angel tt i prayed for and my answered prayers.
It meant alot to me.
I was stupid/sucidal/weak.
she gave me rather alot of confidence and strength to move on,
to pass through the long long long night.
(okay.im getting emo now)
The next thing after our phonecall,
i know i'll be happily waiting for her and eu at the bus stop.
and then i will just be fine and crap nonstop.

I rmb vividly i had the worst year of all my life in JC1.
tt incident with marc plus i was failing every subject.
i had no idea why.
i used to top the class, As my results in sec 1 and 2.
probably mom was right in the part that rela will affect my studies.
everyone was passing except me.
i didnt understand why.

'that' incident had me sucidal.
i rmb taking that blunt scissors slashing my wrist.
i didnt know what else to do to alleviate the pain in my broken heart.
i had silly thoughts of running out of my window.
how silly was i.
i told her my sillythoughts.
she said "you dont be crazy. dont think like that"
i wonder if i will still be alive if she isnt there.
it may not be much to her, just answering a phone call.
but at that point, it seriously meant alot to me.


Anyway. i think i m digressing.
Truth is, i want my lil elaine to be a mallory.
i often told her, im gonna name my daughter mallory.
she will just laugh and say okay!
and make jokes abt how my daughter's gonna address her.


seriously.
wouldnt the world be nice if its make of mallories?
instead of m_ _ _ _ _ _
OMG.


just spoke to bestie online.
poor darling.
her bf actually strangled her?
spat on her!
pushed her to the floor!!!
better not let me see him,
i freaking swear that i will slap him and kick his balls if he even has them.
if he has the balls to do all these then why cant he has the same balls to face her parents.

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