Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I'm really quite happy with my life now (:
besides the fact that ive to mug everday.
I starting questioning whats the use of studying so much?
will it be of any use to me in future?

Actually im kinda scared..

It's sure a scary thought if my life to turn out to be any less great than what i've imagine to be.

Me too started questioning whats the point of studying so hard?
Studied so hard for As, uni and then what?

Will i get my dream job?
Do i ever have a dream job in the first place?
I never really thought of what to become.

Will i ever walk down that famous aisle in my pretty white gown with the one?
Are you even the one?

Can i cope with the duties of a wifey and mom?
I think i'll never grow up.
Even up till now, im so relient on my dear dad and mom.
But hey. i will too be a wonder of a mommy to my lovely children.
actually im quite trained with my nieces and nephew and a silly bf who never grow outta his childhood and bugs me for my love daily.

So what's after all these?
Yea, my lovely children will grow up and start to question why are they in this same routine that ive went through.

Seriously, whats the purpose of life?
I am usually quite optimistic, enjoying every joy, disappointment, grief that i go through. Its part of life so i take time to go through every bit of emotion that im going through at that point of time.
But being such a "live-life-to-fullest" kinda girl, me too question the meaning of life.

Everyone surely will have thoughts about the future.
All those times whereby we pledged to stay tgt when we're adults.
Taking turns to drive and be drunk.
I remember all of it.
This was my future that i thought when i was younger with kris.
Have you ever thought that your life will turn out less great that you've always imagine to be? Its sure a scary thought, isnt it?


Well, i guess i shan't scare myself and you all any further.
We shall just take things as they come.

I rmb vividly telling wifey to enjoy every bit of her travelling time to sch and enjoy her 3 hrs long science practical. I still believe in enjoying every min of my life. whether is it spend on mugging or outing, i will love it all the way.
I used to complain how unfair life is to me, why some ppl do not have to work as hard for things.
But now, im grateful for having a abled-body, having parents who love me so much, sis who care alot for me, friends who are just so super amazing, fun and are always here and a bf who mature so much over the years,learnt to take care of me and love me very much.

Having all said, do i need to complain some more?
Its a really really wonderful feeling.
I cherish what ive now very much.
What else can i ask for?

I just need to study hard and perservere for a while more.
And when silly bf goes army, he will not have to worry about me being the lazy me.
I will change okay. i shant be lazy anymore.


and, thanks bf.
for everything.
i didnt know hw lucky i was until someone said
"he did it for me not bcuz he loves me but bcuz i do alot of things for him".
Simple chores like making me a my fave milo, cook for me and watching my show.
i didnt know to appreciate. to me, it was just simple things.
I didnt realise tt a person does all this just for you because he loves you.
But now i know, i shall go buy ur prawn mee for you.


Having said all these.
I really wanna let u girls know that i look forward to every weekly outing.
and that i enjoyed myself very much. Every laughs, every silence, everything.
I appreciate the very different personalities of us that God has created and let us come tgt.
The meticulous and loyal wifey
The thoughtful and smiley husbandy
The fun-loving and joyful affairy

i love each of you very much.

and as i was saying. we shant miss our weekly meetings anymore.
otherwise eventually the gap among us will get wider and wider and im sure u all dont want it to happen (:

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