Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Went over to NUH to accompany marc for his scan on his shin.
Test result, severe stress fracture on his right shin, mild stress fracture on the other. It's a common injury for atheles but somehow it hurts really badly. Sigh. He's so sad over the test results and Im really worried about it.

There's a test next week and i doubt he can recover by then to take the test so he'll take it even though he's injured.

I feel really bad for him cuz' his might have to do clerical work when he POP.


Anyway, I aint in the best of mood. In fact marc's injuries further dampen my mood. Im fretting over uni admission.



Its funny and ironic that everyone else is moving on except me. Its funny how I am the one trying the hardest to forget but end up remembering every single detail. For instance, I can list out every single activity and conversation. I remember the very first feeling of uncertainty, the endless queries in my mind, the questions i asked, the guilt in the eyes. I can even feel the bubbly, joyful and laughy you.

You're always asking me to move on. Honestly, just take out my puny brains and wash/extract/filter out all those stuff OR YOU CAN JUST FUCKING BANG ME DOWN WITH YOUR CAR.


Perhaps it aint just so simple. Perhaps you mistaken me for your Cinderella.


The guilt, the ultimate betrayal.

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