Sunday, April 05, 2009

A different entry for what was going through my mind last night. I didnt want to write it in my previous entry to spoil my happy entry.

I think Im too nice thats why you think its okay for you to scream and shout at me over the phone. I have my reasons in everything that I do.

Yes, you have your friends now and I have my own friends. We were once so close and I deeply regret that things became this way.

You know, you're my regret and the wound still feels raw and painful even after all these years. How I wish everything can be back to the way we were, when we were both young, we share our dreams, our secrets, our fantasies. How I wish I can still say 'she's my best friend'.

I do miss you very much, K. But I guess no matter how hard or how much we try, things aint going to be the same again. I had never once raise my voice at you, I love you very much and I give in to you all the time because I didnt want us to quarrel because I really treasure our friendship. Yes, you were once so important to me. I held you very very very closely to my heart.

Its a shame that you think that I dont care. Its not that I dont care, its just that Im afraid of awkwardness, Im afraid of the silence between us. I'm afraid that things can never be the same again.

But you know what, I still love you very much even though things had escalated this way.
How I wish you will be more understanding and less assuming. I do love you alot.

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