3 years ago
Wednesday, July 15, 2009

3 years ago





My face was much rounder and I wasnt so skinny.






OKAY ENOUGH!! Yeah. I get it. I lost alot of weight.

Everyone is asking me about my weight and continue to blabber how much weight have I lost and they go on and on. Every wedding, birthday parties, gathering, CNY, meetup, ITS FOR SURE THAT SOME KUKU WILL ASK ME ABOUT MY WEIGHT AGAIN. For example, I met Jon last april and he asked me about my weight, met him in july again, he asked again. My relatives pretty much kept talking about my weight weddings after weddings, CNYs after CNYs.

Honestly, I am sick of answering the same questions over and over again. Even though I often joke that I am anorexic, but inside my heart I am still irritated by them. But I cant be impolite to my relatives. Today, my tuition kid mom asked me why I lose so much weight. Wah. seriously. I am going crazy.

I wanna gain weight too. But how? Try having diarrhoea once weekly. I dont even dare to eat much food cuz I am afraid that my stomach cannot take it. I cant even take Mac Spicy nor Bandito. See how pathetic my life is? I cant even order my fave Meepok with chilli. Honestly, I am pretty upset by my weight loss. I wanna gain weight but how? I was happy with my weight in the past, I didnt try to lose weight or anything. I was happy with my plump size. I was almost disgnosed with colorectal cancer. It was so bad until marc got scared stiff.

"The Lord is always with us. The Lord is loving. So fret not. As we are the child of the Lord. My darling rest well. May you rest well and I have always love you for who you are and what you are.. I love you for being the best other half of me.. Love you always as you complete my life"

I wanna gain weight but how? My stomach is so weak. Vomit diarrhoea. Vomit diarrhoea. Screw it man. People, it will be nice if you guys stop telling me how skinny I am and ask me to eat more to gain weight. Stop telling me how ugly I look when compared to the past, stop telling me that my face very small, stop telling me that I look better in the past. I cant help it too okie and I feel really upset that I cant do anything about it because I really love eating, now, i cant eat much. :(

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